Why does it affect me like dat?
Each time he tells me I'm the one. I'm the only one for him. I'm the one he's been looking for. I'm the last girl he wants to be with. I breakdown and cry. I am happy.
But each time he says the same thing, it doesn't affect the same way as when he says it. Why?
Have all my feelings been transferred to him? Why do I still hang on when I got him? My prince charming.

Stuff I don't like about him. a lot. stuff that i like about him. i don't know.
stuff i don't like about him. a few but not as much. stuff that i like about him. a lot too.
I would not get into a fight if i was with him but more with the latter. I would be happier with the latter. but now he loves me more right? So why can't i be happy?

Why issit taking a long time for me to realise who i want to be with.

I wish God tells me who I should be with. I wish .. I wish i nv met both at all. I'm in agony and I'm putting them in agony no matter who i choose! and at my wedding day. I will suffer and cry the moment i see the one i could hav married.

My return here is a very special reason. It is because my current blog is thoroughly checked by my ex. and also currently I am cheating on my current boyfriend with my ex.
There is but a reason for this. I love them both. I will be happy with either. I will also have family politics with both. I will be loved more no matter who i choose. It is a matter how I want to be loved.
Sha future problems - financial. his family ties.
DD future problems - my family ties and his.
I am not proud of this confession. It is a dirty greedy sin but I cry a lot everyday because I do not know who to choose. I did left my ex for the current one but as they say, you love the one you fell in love with unconditionally. Unconditional love that may lead to your doom and unhappiness in the future.
You may love him but his family may not be in terms with you. This is a battle many ladies take everyday. Pleasing and looking good for others all the time. Can I take that? Looking good for myself. Asking my future kids to behave and look good for me.

Dear Readers,

Following my cousin's movement, I have decided to change my blog address too. I feel that site offers more functions and features that are more user friendly and more choices to choose from than here. I'm sorry 7537, I am going to give up on you after 412 episodes. T_T.

My new blog would be more personal. It is a bit wordy though. Have alot of links that I often visit. Don't laugh at the name. I couldn't think of one better than my 7537 since they dun allow numbers only. Haiz.

I'm Here from now on.

today i was seeing stuff

like when i turn into a corner to the toilet
.. i saw something black, small moved away quickly
at the end of corridor

i saw something white, small, cloth, at the bottom of the pillar
 moved away when i stepped out of the mrt too

i saw someone walking quickly into the void deck
juz the skin color..i saw.. no memories of color of the clothes..

freakyyy..

even the black cat i called followed me
and disappeared behind me.

fatigue accumulation

im fcking tired.

when is the money coming in man....